Loss

You said you will stay,
where are you now?
Stepping through
the ghost of what was
and what we could 
never become,
a sudden pang of loss 
stabbed me on the chest,
slowly spreading, squeezing,
suffocating me.
No proper farewell,
not even a parting word.
Everything, suddenly silenced
I'm afraid, 
this time for good.

Broken Promises

Broken promises and scattered lies

are lingering, heavy, suspended in midair

steadily permeating my whole being

always succeeding to warm my heart

while slowly suffocating my mind

killing my spirit and draining my soul.

Games

He played with my heart
But that was okay
I had my own fun
Along the way
Until it was not
Just for fun anymore
Left me beaten, scarred
Right down to my core
At the end, it all was
No one's fault but mine
Let him get too close
Just to fight my ennui
Until it was too late
I already cared
I went too far
Than I originally dared

Dark and Deadly Sins

Oh my dearest one
how much darkness have you seen?
Have you seen the darkness
of the human soul?
Men sucking each other dry
just to fill one's belly?
Loved ones unable
to convey their feelings
end up smiting one another
due to misunderstandings?
The selfish neglect
of ones responsibilities
just  to lose oneself in vice?
Once honorable men crumble
when confronted by
temporary monetary gain?
The weak-willed become
all to eager to succumb to their lust?
We humans all pretend to be 
moral creatures, but in truth,
we are just driven by 
our most base instincts.
We are corrupt, malicious beings
imperfect, yet always boastful
of our superiority among all creatures.
The worst of humanity
is always capable of unspeakable evils.
However, we are not inherently corrupt.
We are still redeemable.
Our benevolent intentions 
more than makes up for our actions.
But however pure and selfless 
our actions and intent are,
all of us, in the end, must face our judgment.

The Song

Every single heart sings,
yet they bleed
Because their songs 
are still incomplete
And until another heart
whispers back
Their life remains
all too bittersweet.
Those who wish to sing
always find the song
And those who can hear
will start to dance
To this magical affliction
known to all men ---
This touch of Love,
no one stands a chance.

No More Excuses

How many promises 
Have you given me?
Every single one drawn 
Sadly over shifting sand
Not one of them ever kept
And treated as if never uttered
What does that say about us
If I cannot count on you?
There is Love 
And there is Hate
And in between them 
Lies a very thin line ---
Sadly, I now find myself
Standing on it.

Somewhere

I hold your heart
yet you are still too far away
cruel twists of fate
kept us apart.
But despite the distance
our souls kept fighting
to reach out and celebrate
each other's half.
I want to be happy
I want to be selfish
and break this cage that
keeps me away from you.
I can't wait for sleep
to meet you there
in our secret place ---
just in between anywhere
and nowhere.
Even time itself 
cannot make us forget.

Don't fret
many possibilities still abound.
There could yet be a place 
waiting for us somewhere
unbound by the rules
of our present hapless circumstance.

Prisoner

You torture me with your indifference
making me question my place in your world
Where I constantly await my chance
to be in your sights again
or gain your good favor
Is that the way it's ever going to be?
just begging for scraps,
always her instead of me?
Your deafening silence fans this misery
cursed perturbation, please set me free.

Trapped

Footsteps echo
in the memory
down the passage 
we did not take
towards the door
we never opened
Somehow,
we are always here
at this moment

you and I

Heart trapped 
in desperate imaginings
of love's what-if's
What might have been 
is an abstraction, 
a perpetual possibility
only in a world of speculation
What might have been
and what has been
point to one end
which is always present
only in the realm 

of the unknown

Maybe

The reason it hurts so much to separate 

is because our souls are connected. 

Maybe they always have been and will be. 

Maybe we have lived 

a thousand lives before this one, 

and in each of them 

we have been forced apart 

for the same reasons.

This means that this goodbye 

is both a goodbye 

for the past ten thousand years 

and a prelude 

of what is yet to come.

When I look at you, 

I see your beauty and grace 

and know that they have grown stronger 

with every life you have ever lived. 

And I know that I have spent 

every life before this one searching for you. 

Not someone like you, but you. 

For your soul and mine 

must always come together. 

And then, 

for a reason neither of us understands,  

we have been forced to say goodbye. 

I would love to tell you 

that everything will work out for us, 

and I promise that I will do all that I can 

to make sure that it does. 

But if we never meet again 

and that this is truly goodbye, 

I know we will see each other again 

in another life. 

We will find each other again, 

and maybe the stars will have changed, 

and we will not only love each other in that time, 

but for all the times we've  had before.