Choice

 

Each within us
lies the spark of light
and along with it, undeniable,
the shadow of darkness.
Everyday becomes a struggle
for that is why we are here ---
to experience the gift of life
and to choose, who wins.

Cuts

 

your words 
are slowly cutting me open
just to leave me 
out there to bleed
as every promise you made
is a thousand sharpened blades
contrived to whittle me 
away to nothingness 
how many more cuts 
must I endure for you?

Sad Eyes

 

Sad eyes on a happy face, 

caressing fading memories 

while tormented 

by slivers of endearing thoughts. 

Here I am, wasting away. 

Should I let go or just lose control? 

I honestly think 

they may be one and the same.

Black Bile

Always lost and on my own

Nobody there beside me

Just trying to stay afloat

In this vast solitary journey

No one to hold my hand

Nor smile any encouragements 

Never felt a pat on my shoulder

Nor heard whispers of endearment

I may not be all alone 

But I do always feel lonely

My body constantly stiff and cold

Like someone's out to attack me

It hurts and doesn't feel good

To eternally feel this way

Too tired and misunderstood 

I just want to fade away

Love Me

 

Love me

like there's no tomorrow
with the stolen moments
we have risked to borrow
from the ones who own us
but never quite belonged
knowing full well it is us, 
in the end, all along.

Hold me
like you've never done before
feel this love
nestled deep in my soul
dance with me
through this endless night
though we know it's wrong
it will always feel right.


Give me 
a long lingering kiss
lead me down 
a blissful abyss
we will never again
have a moment like this
leave me complete
with nothing to miss.

Dark Muse

I need you more
than I want you
I love you more
than I dared
It hurts me more
than it feels good
But I honestly
don't even care 
I need you 
and you want me
Sadly, you are 
too far away
I held you once
like forever
Too bad you did not 
choose to stay

Lost Years

  

The years we lost

before and after we found ourselves

face to face once again, 

after two decades 

The years after we stitched those dreams together 

and the years before those same dreams 

suddenly ended; abandoned

not knowing if they will be ever owned again

The cracks in between promises 
made out of the fragile trust between friends, 
built over words 

uttered in confidence 
so many memories ago

cherished once, but now hanging worthless 

amidst poisoned air 
trying so hard to sound sincere and clever

Your eyes betray you 
along with your trembling hands 
that couldn't get enough cigarettes 
to burn one after another 
as if you're always running out of time

I might have known all along 
yet I still played the fool 
choosing to hold on to the painting on the wall 
the idyllic picture I painted of you and I
and what we could have been together

I was foolish 

to dangerously ignore the malicious entity 

that had always been there 
lurking just beneath your benevolent pretense

hiding a deceitful and cruel mind, 

always ready to choke me and leave me lifeless
the minute there is nothing more for me to give
and nothing left for you to take

Dark Days

there are certain days
bleakly grey and dreadful
as if something awful
is just lurking around the corner

a dark cloud hangs above
my already muddled head
and the world seemingly
distant as if in a dream

my emotions are anaesthetized
coming out inadequate, apathetic
unable to connect, a bit unsure
apprehensive and conflicted

a truly desolate state of mind
growing indifferent and aloof
unable to fear, love or hate
an existence detached and forlorn

Questions

every day now, I kind of die just a little
as I constantly feel you drift further away from me
visions of my once painted future gets bleaker
my youthful spirit burnt out, replaced with ennui
my inkwell of poetry about you almost dry
and my soulful quill of emotions now stiff
as I am left now with a roomful of parchment
all the time in my hands but my thoughts all adrift
how did I get here in this depressing state?
where did all my passion for life go?
am I left with just a shell of my past self
the day I asked you, and you replied, "I don't know"

Selfless

Although he truly loves her
He knows she was a prisoner
Wrapped in his heavy chains
Until none of her soul remains
He knew then he had to set her free
Even if he had to face what could be
But at least she would be able to fly
Tears will be no longer in those eyes
To finally become all that she will
Yet from afar, he will love her still

Creatures of the Night

Two unlikely runners
Sprint into the moonlight
Both cursed by affliction
All humans will spite

He howls at the full moon
And craves the taste of flesh
The other loathes sunlight
And prefers her blood fresh

They met by accident
Just a few moons ago
Attracted by the prey
They both tried to pursue

Instead what they both found
Is obvious attraction
That thereafter blossomed
To a deeper connection

As the shared nights passed by
Their affection flourished
Unusual, forbidden
They kept their love nourished

Key is to be cautious
Stay low yet on alert
This aberrant union
Must stay guarded, covert

So they meet in the woods
Where the future seems right
They run in the darkness
For love, every night

Of Life and Love

in another life
we are simply two strangers
walking past each other
holding someone else's arms
not ever knowing the other existed
and how empty this made our world

and in another life
we are the happiest of lovers
living to make each other smile
and enjoying the rest of our forever

however, in this current life
we are nothing but two sad strangers
carrying a shared memory
both hoping to move on and live
however lonely without each other

in this life
we have known how it is to love

and yet, in the end

we had to endure life without it

Lonely

not alone but lonely
and hurting just the same
it's always the same story
when my soul calls your name
close but not touching
present yet never near
bathed in deep yearning
that time cannot heal
full of love yet so empty
fortunate yet in despair
this world without you
is the life I have to bear